You and I will never be Crystal Castles

I haven’t been writing much since the summer, or after it, I guess and I have been conscious of this because I know exactly what did I wrote the last time I did. I proposed to myself this space of time (the time where I didn’t recorded any of my thoughts in letters or sentences) because at the time I didn’t had my thoughts really clear, at all. I thought I was in love of a person that obviously didn’t gave a shit about me so I spent a lot of time with him, then I left to my hometown where I was really far away of him and I realized something a lot more complicated. I don’t know if you could define love as I do, but when I notice that I would give anything to start some kind of communication with a person of my hometown, I knew where this “feeling” was heading into. So I’m here, again, where I currently “live” and I have been really depressed and I didn’t know why until I had this series of dreams where this person of my hometown was, and I knew. I still don’t have figured out my feelings but for what I know, I am in love with someone, or with the idea of someone and that’s keeping me calm, in a way. The other reason why I wasn’t writing was because, going back to the title of this entry, the person that I was talking in the first place was this 6 year old fucker, and we had some good times, some awkward times, some really inappropriate times and definitely some wrong times so that’s why I took the decision of stop talking with him. He proposed me a lot of things and he used to think a lot too quickly so I didn’t had time to over-think, he once told me that we could do some music together (that was NOT an idea that you will find in my brain EVER) and he said that we could be some sort of crystal castles and I was so blank at that time that I just said yes but as you see (in the pictures that I have been posting) I found a awesome blog about CC and I found out really close information about them and I have to say: They are NOT as naughty mentally speaking as he was, and trust me, he was, they have this awesome friendship/relationship (I have never know if they are a couple of just friends) that, I feel, could not be spoiled or rotten as in how I feel about the person in question. Finally, they are brilliant, they work together and they are, in their way, really different but same a the same time and that’s totally the opposite with me and this guy. You and I will never be a we and we will certainly NEVER be crystal castles, because they are AWESOME and you’re not—-